Our Weird Ideas

Even when we think we have become more comfortable with the idea of our own death, we might find that we harbor odd ideas about death.  I have come to realize that we often have a specific idea and sometimes interesting ideas about our final wishes. Some of us might think that cremains are light and airy and that somehow cremains can just blow away in the wind. Some people do not want their bodies to go back to the earth and are afraid of nature coming in contact their bodies. Some people really want to make sure that when they die, they are in fact dead.  Still others think that maybe embalming might hurt.  For me, I do not ever want to be put in a mausoleum because I do not know how I would get out. 
I think having a good look at what romantic or fear based ideas we might entertain about death allows us an opportunity up to take a deeper look at the reality of death.  Looking into our own misgivings about death might just open our eyes to the fact that we might not really embrace our own mortality.  Perhaps having misgivings about death does not necessarily mean we are totally afraid of death.  Maybe we just have a hard time coming to terms with the fact that at some point our bodies really will be dead.  Our bodies one day will cease to function. We spend an awful lot of time everyday living with our bodies.  We have lived through so much with them and through them.  Coming to terms with the fact that one day we will have to leave these bodies just might give us misgivings.  That might not be such a bad thing.  Maybe this tells us that we are not infatuated with death. It might just tell us that we are not really ready to have a good look at our own death.  Whatever the reason, having a look at these illogical ideas we have about death might just lend itself to a deeper exploration of our own psyche.  This process might lead us to becoming more accepting of ourselves and others who are trying to take ownership of their lives and death.